Good morning Mike and Jenny,
Another morning I've woken up so already a great day! I'm sure it won't be as interesting as yesterday was but that is fine. It is always one of the things I like about walking and why I am always looking at the ground ahead of me, not only to avoid tripping which I do often enough but to look for road treasure. Change sure, jewelry, tools etc but this was my first wallet and I was to be honest sort of excited. Oddly that moment when you (or at least I when I'm honest) think about keeping it but them thinking that maybe this is the person's food money or part rent money for the month plus it simply doesn't belong to me. No ID maybe a different story but a Google search gave me the potential owner so that takes care of that.
I like to think with a team of 6 or 8 oncologists reviewing my case that I've got all the bases covered.
But I so badly just want my life back. Less lymphedema, no ulcerated sores, being able to scratch my arm - the stuff my dreams are made of. Not to be thinking when I wake up and look at my arm, has it gotten worse - are there new tumors - will the ILI treatment no longer be an option for me? They've already told me that treatment #1 and #2 are going to be stopped in a few weeks, one or two of them each to go. Probably OK as they don't seem to be working that well anyway. We'll continue with #3 and then we're hoping that the ILI will be the one to do the trick. I'm not sure if there is anything else to bring to the table after that.
There are moments while hope keeps me going, I'd also sort of like a definitive answer one way or the other to just be done with it. Hope is great but having this drag out for 20 plus months now and the way it dominates my life is slowly grinding me down.
I give so much thanks for my son though. I think it if was terminal I'd choose a different path. Liquidate my assets, maybe ship the car to Europe and go driving around there for a few months. My gf and parents will get through life fine without me but I worry about getting as much time with my son as I can.
Mike, I do not arrive in Calgary until tomorrow 4ish. We'll have to see how you're feeling at that time Mike, to be sure having just gone through a flu about 5 weeks ago that lasted for two weeks and really f'ed me over good I'd rather not go through that again. But lets see how you're feeling over the next 24 hours. I'm hoping for those I can't meet this trip there will be an upcoming one for say an operation!! And with better weather then there'd better be some cars on the road!!!!
I'm glad the pictures didn't make you lose your cookies Jenny, God knows I almost feel that way sometimes!
Just getting ready to go for exercise, -28 here this morning!!!!
Cheers one and all,
Garry
